I had to get back to Rebel. I didn’t understand why the urge was so strong, but I intended to fulfill it. It wasn’t just physical although I wanted to be in her presence more than anything.
“Rey? Are you listening to me?”
I snapped out of the thought. “Yeah, I heard you. I mean what did you say?” I looked sheepishly at Kathy as we walked the circular path around the park and made uncomfortable small talk.
“I know you’re going back to LA tonight and I just want to say goodbye before you go.”
There went that stabbing ache again. Rebel flashed through my mind accompanied by soft warmth I could feel all over and I could feel a daydream coming on. Images of her flooded my mind. Memories of her heat lingering on the spot that made me want to call out her name. Her hands telling my body secrets they didn’t know yet as they slid up and down my thighs and her tongue whispered sweet nothings to my soul. I took all of the love I felt for Rebel and made it physical in order to protect my heart.
“Hey now… What is on your mind lover boi?” Kathy had slowed her pace by then and touched the back of my arm to prompt me to stop walking.
“A lot, Kath, a whole lot.” I said thinking back to all the things I wanted to say to her before our breakup years ago. My words poured out. I could barely contain myself as if I felt guilty for having such intense thoughts about Rebel while with Kathy, my first love. There were no comparisons to be made, no compromises or holding back to withstand this time because if anything Rebel already had me and that right there had me completely fucked up. If not for Rustin’s ass I would have been right back where I belonging. An entire Saturday spent making love to the woman I… well, all I knew was that I wasn’t asking for much and she had stolen something very valuable to me. My heart. Ugh.
“Focus Rene!” I begged my mind to settle down before telling Kathy how I hadn’t been able to let a woman inside my heart. Not at all. Not until now. I paused before continuing. “I was so hurt by our breakup I compared every woman to you and I purposely found fault in them, even when none existed, which wound up hurting me even more. I only have myself to blame and I’m sorry if I ever made you feel like you were the cause.”
Every thought in my head wanted to focus on Rebel, but I struggled to push her from my mind for now. I hated going through any sort of emotional discomfort and this situation was bringing me a great deal of it. I wanted to be back in LA.
“Rey…”
I interrupted her and continued, “I haven’t done that once since meeting her and I don’t know why I’m telling you all of this, but I just need you to know that we both have finally let go. I just don’t want things to be awkward for you or me when we’re in the same room anymore.”
We’d both come a long way and I knew that’s what she always wanted to hear, needed to hear, but I never gave her that closure. I felt sorry about it now.
“I sensed there was someone special. You have that look in your eyes and you’ve been lost in thought since the moment I saw you.”
I feigned disbelief. “What ‘chu talkin’ ‘bout, woman.” I said in my best Arnold Drummond impression.
“I know you.” she said playfully poking me on the arm. I brought my arms close to my body and acted as though I was wounded, then chuckled. I smiled appreciatively at Kathy.
“She must really be something.”
“She just might…” I couldn’t stop myself from swallowing hard even though I didn’t want it to appear as though there was any apprehension on my part. “She just might be the one.” I watched for a reaction.
When there was none but a smile that appeared genuine I begin to breathe easier and felt my mood lighten. Her smile was soft and warm and she told me to me to give her a big hug so she could get back to the office. We embraced and afterward I pulled out my cell phone and dialed my travel agent. I wanted to catch the earliest flight to LA.
I put my longing to rest after confirming a 3 o’clock flight. I would be in town by 7, just enough time to surprise Rebel with a late night visit, pre-planned of course after she finally divulged her address.
I boarded the flight and fell fast asleep. My dreams kept me busy. I saw myself move beneath her as she straddled me on top. Her touch alone was stronger than any orgasm I ever incited on myself. I wanted to kiss her so badly but she wouldn’t lower her head for me. I feel her body moving back and forth against my very wet, very aroused crotch. I was wet but could still feel her moisture seeping through the boxers I had no idea why I was still wearing. I pulled her ass into me and pressed into her pussy. I tried to lean forward to wrap my arms around her waist but she restrained me with her hands, pushing them down, but really, I let her. She gripped my shoulders with her small hands. I leaned to the side and kissed them. I wanted her to be in control of me and inside of me and just as she increased her speed I laid all the way back and enjoyed the feel of her soft, silky skin coming into contact with my own. She felt like brown velvet and we moved like thick molasses and I wanted to taste all of her. Finally, she lowered her head and her breasts brushed against my chest so that our breasts were kissing too. I needed her.
Suddenly I felt myself being jolted awake. By the time I opened my eyes we were enjoying the final bumps of the smooth landing the pilot promised before takeoff. I walked out of the airport by 7:30 and didn’t have much time to spare. I caught a cab to my place and showered and changed clothes. I had just enough time left to pick up some flowers at a nearby florist on the way to Rebel’s place.
I felt like 9 o’clock couldn’t have gotten there any faster. I drove my truck and packed a duffel bag, stowed in the back, with an extra change of clothes just in case I spent the night. I wasn’t assuming anything, but with Rebel I knew anything was possible.
I rang the doorbell and waited. Five minutes later I was annoyed, but ten minutes later I was ready to break the door down. She stood me up. No one ever stood me up.
Just as I thought it the doorknob turned and there stood Rene. I tried to hide the hard swallow developing in my tightened throat as I looked at her. Her beauty had staggered me since the first time we met, literally, but this time was different. Every time with Rebel was different I was learning.
She looked drop dead gorgeous and I could feel my fingers tingling. I wanted to drool all over her and handle her like I was some outlaw cowboy in an old western, but my heart wanted me to be as gentle with Rebel as it felt in that moment. I let her smile envelop me completely and I felt oddly at peace. I smiled weakly. I wanted her all to myself and I was determined to accomplish that goal as subtly as possible.
I opened my arms and she melted into me. This is what I had been waiting for. My baby was in my arms, where she belonged. The further my hand traveled down her back the further I wanted it to go. She felt like a slice of heaven in my arms and to be honest, my crotch was throbbing as hard as my heart was pounding inside my chest. I rubbed my palm against the dip in her lower back and worked my fingers further down. I wanted to feel and taste every honey colored ounce of the body of this woman. That was the only way I could tell her how much I loved her, while doing the very thing she silently demanded; showing her. I smiled thinking how right I was and felt it turn into a smirk.
Rebel must have felt my cocky aggression making an appearance and she pulled back from me. She didn’t like it all the time, but I didn’t care. I could deal with whatever she liked, loved, hated, and so on for as long as my heart allowed. She demanded her flowers with a smile and turned to walk away from me with pink lilies in tow. I hoped her nose caught a whiff of the fresh aroma permeating from the pink calla lily buds.
I whistled as I caught sight of her ass swaying as she walked away. I could get used to this. The butterflies in my stomach were fierce, but I wasn’t going to let it show. I walked inside and was not surprised at the elegant decor that immediately welcomed. Her place felt warm and inviting and earthy and classy all at once. There were beautiful paintings adorning the walls and a large mirror that caught me off guard as my reflection emerged for the few seconds I walked by.
She placed the flowers next to a vase of roses that already graced the dining table. I grinned, admiring her preparedness. When Rebel asked about Rustin and his lawyer, whom she assumed was a guy, I panicked. It was complicated, but would she understand? Ugh. I shook my head and said “nothing.” My face felt pained for a minute but I hoped she didn’t notice. I wasn’t ready to talk about Kathy yet. I didn’t want her to worry about anyone else coming in between my feelings for her. Hell, she didn’t even know how deeply I felt about her.
I took Rebel’s hand and the softness that enveloped mine made my heart beat faster. I felt like butter as I confessed to her that I missed her.
“And I missed you…” she said as her dimples flashed, and then she blushed. I wanted to kiss her but she continued. “I have some things planned for us over the weekend… You are staying right?” I had hoped for this and played it cool.
“Is that an invitation?” I smiled and gazed at Rebel with a slight grin.
“You don’t need an invitation. Maybe a key, but not an invitation.”
My head started spinning so fast I had to talk just to control myself. “A key? Wait… Does this mean…? Did you change your mind? I mean, about us?” I was shocked but I couldn’t hold back. I needed clarity and here she was just handing me reciprocity without me even telling her how I truly felt.
“Yes.. I .. Uh..”
“Spit it out Rebel.” I interrupted not being able to stand it any longer.
“Rene, I love.. Being with you. I want this… Us.. To be a permanent thing.” My heart could have burst inside my chest and I’d still be alive just from the surge of energy I felt run through my body at the mention of the words us and permanent. Her and I. A couple. This was more than I hoped for, but everything I had hoped for and more. I wanted to tell her I loved her. I thought about saying it right then, but I just couldn’t. I simply said “okay.” And that was that. Rebel was mine.
I finished eating and my stomach was more satisfied than it had been in years. There was only one other person that cooked better than my Nana and she was my best friend, for obvious reasons. It was only fitting that Rebel’s lasagna put both of theirs to shame.
She offered to take my plate and as she leaned over the table I grabbed her wrist before she cold reach the plate. I spread my legs and pulled her in between. She looked beautiful and it took every ounce of energy not to take off her dress and take her right there on the table. I wanted to make her feel my love over and over again. I stared deep into her eyes hoping she could see what I felt. I didn’t have to wait long before she straddled my lap. I immediately pulled her closer to me. She felt perfect and my hands reached for her ass. I cupped each cheek as she leaned in to kiss me. I felt her tongue slip past my lips and I parted my lips to invite her further in. She felt divine and I wished that I had brought my strap-on.
I slipped two fingers inside of her and she began thrusting her hips to the tune of my own. My other hand rubbed her breasts through her dress. Her nipples poked out at me and I wanted to nibble on them but I rubbed and cupped them in between deep strokes. When her back arched I knew I had her. My cell phones ring tone startled the both of us and we jumped in surprise. I instinctively let her go to fish for the phone. I wanted to turn it off or answer, either one, and I was sorry with my choice. I didn’t bother to look at the caller id before pressing send, but it was too late and I was going to end this right now.
Rebel walked toward the kitchen and I stood and walked into the other room. I hated doing this, but I lowered my voice.
“Denise, didn’t I tell you to stop calling me?”
“Rey, how dare you push me off like I’m some… thing. I don’t know who you think you are!”
“What the hell are you talking about? We aren’t in a relationship, in case you forgot.”
“I never said we were but I thought we were dating.”
I was so annoyed at that point I told her that I was seeing someone exclusively and that if she couldn’t be cool with that, we couldn’t be cool period.” When I felt like she finally got the message we ended the call. Denise always drained me. I plopped down on the chaise couch and made myself comfortable. Rebel walked in just as I was settled and I wanted her near me. I motioned and she walked over. I wrapped her into a tight embrace as she slunk down onto my lap. She smelled so good and her sweetness overpowered my senses. If she touched me anywhere on my body I would have exploded right then so I held onto her instead. I felt comfort in the embrace and completely relaxed my body, although my arms were gently wrapped around her. For the first time since the last time we were together, I felt complete.
I sighed and my body relaxed so much so that I ended up drifting off to sleep.
