I have a heavy heart weighing on my body and soul
So many emotions I want to control
And so many jailed emotions I want to release
But rejection is my master and I’m on their leash
Not all the sandbags in the world can hold the despair back
It’s just like a levee that’s destined to crack
I apologize to the feelings that were made to set me free
I still want to be friends and never enemies.
Yet I still fight to hide them in a place so deep
Then let them roam free in my dreams while I sleep.
Yes, when I sleep there’s nothing else better.
If it were up to me, I would sleep forever.
I adore my sub-conscience for orchestrating the most beautiful scenes
surpassing reality…if it were up to me…I’d live on your realm.
But it’s not up to me, it’s up to my God
I keep unloading my heavy burdens.
Felt like I was dragging a thousand rods
And although I unload them
I keep getting more stock
I’m getting so tired of working ’round the clock.
Miss Gee is a twenty-four year old artist, writer, and web designer. She can be reached via Twitter.
Wow…this poem touched my spirit. I’m crying and this is weird, I know. I’m not a poet, but this poem sums up what’s going on with me at the moment.
I’m with you, Miss Gee. Gonna chisel my own key and unlock the door to my emotional ruse…and face the truth, even if she doesn’t want to feel the power. I’ll feel it and move on, if it has to be that way.
Keep gracin’ the page with that beautiful rage!